despair:
intr.v. despaired, despairing, despairs
1. To lose all hope: despaired of reaching shore safely.
2. To be overcome by a sense futility or defeat
n.
1. Complete loss of hope.
2. One despaired of or causing despair.
Despair is such a strong word to use to describe an emotional state but couldn’t many of us maybe relate to the #2 underlined definition? My life has been full victories and defeat… I just keep looking at the defeated moments as only temporary so that #1 of each section doesn’t become characteristic of me.
Today I accept that I have been defeated and call to you Lord to replenish and rejuvenate my spirit so that I may start anew tomorrow, and end the day exhausted and depleted of all that I can give – victorious.