It’s been some time since I’ve really felt the desire to write here or even the freedom to really express myself openly without dealing with consequence I’d prefer not too. Feeling this way can’t help but leaving me wondering where does this blog go from here. My motivations to write aren’t the same anymore and I don’t feel compelled to write something prolific either. I do have things to say however…. Just much of it is quiet conversation within my mind these days during the wee hours of the night when everyone and most everything slows down. This blog has been in existence for about 10 years now. Can you believe it?!? Time flies when you’re…..living and learning. I decide the future of this space tonight, but if there’s anyone still in the audience, what are your thoughts? Can you relate?
It’s been almost a year to date since I posted here publically… While much has transpired, I haven’t had the same motivation to really disclose everything here on my public blog. In a nutshell work has been solid although the automotive industry is transforming significantly and the need to diversify my teams’ porfolio is as high as it’s ever been.
Professionally I’m really focused on a few things as a result. 1) learning as much as I reasonably can on my own time so that I can contribute to my employer as much as possible. 2) looking for innovative ways to market our services and snag new business opportunities as possible. 3) rejuvenating my effort and efficiency to be as productive as possible with the effort I’m putting forth.
I’m embracing our new office but also cognitive of the fact that this introduces direct overhead for our team and increases the need for sustaining revenue.
Socially not much has changed. I’m still optimistic that a mature woman can come into my life that brings out the best of me, truly has something to offer as a woman, and is keen on working in partnership to really enjoy life with a friendship that really is mutually beneficial. While there have certainly been quality women that I’ve spent time with the feasibility of a committed relationship has been somewhat disappointing but not impossible. It is difficult to continually build something with someone that you need to get to know hundreds of miles away. I could complain and honestly in some of my more private moments I have but of course it’s done no good.
Mentally I’ve been up and down but I hope to get away from that roller coaster a bit and really key in on what’s important to me and keep balance in my life. I’m a good person and I have much to offer but I have to keep it together, even during times of adversity, doubt, and pessimism which surround me.
My city, my industry, my country, my heart, and more have had their back against the wall but I am confident we all will prevail. My faith is still strong and while patience is sometimes thin, it is still within me.
Our new President has quite the road ahead of him and certainly if he can face all the challeges looming over him with optismism so can I. I’m blessed and fortunate to say the least.
The pursuit of love often involves the physical pleasures of intimacy, the excitement of courtship, blind trust or renewed trust, high expectations, understanding, and a number of other factors. One item that I rarely hear mentioned is companionship. Companionship is a quality that ha special meaning to me. it’s the quiet glue that bonds two people together and breeds long-term commitment which comes about naturally.
To have have days, months, and even years go by and continue to someone’s presence in my life speaks volumes about the quality of the relationship that I share with that person. Many people come and go quickly in our lives. Others stick around for a lifetime in friendship. A handful will be there in love for an eternity.
Companionship is what we appreciate most in old age and last breaths, movies and high school dances, honeymoon cruises, 25-year anniversaries, etc. Its why being single only means being without commitment rather than being alone. Even single people often get snaged by the net of relationship if for no other reason than companionship.
It All Adds Up…
In our walk through life we often feel like there are moves that we make that are positive steps forward…and then there are the occasional setbacks, or steps backward. The thought crossed my mind earlier that when you have faith in God, there is no such thing as a setback, steps backward in life, or subtraction of our forward progress.
In all things positive and adverse, God moves us forward towards a proper destination. Hence “our steps are ordered“. The “bad” in life is what often teaches us the most, utilizes our muscles of faith, and brings out our inner-most strength. Come to think about it, us Black folks shined the most in the past when we were in our most adverse times. Slavery, no equal rights, racism, and all kinds of other oppression set the stage for Malcom X, Martin Luther King Jr., Harriett Tubman, Marcus Garvey, Coretta Scott King, Rosa Parks, and many others.
Today our struggles are different and subjectively better or less adverse, but opinion and statistics suggest we have less and shine not quite as brightly. I’m not trying to knock anybody but rather simply taking notice that in the experiences of life, it all adds up and serves purpose in the days that follow.
Each day’s sum will always be greater than the day prior. Perhaps take this day and truly appreciate how God has utilized ALL in our lives good and bad to prepare us for the present and provide strategy for the future.
No steps back… No subtraction… Just addition and steps forward…even if they’re just baby steps