It's Just Us….

It’s been a while since I’ve really sat down and put some quality time into my blog. I want to take a moment to simply thank all of you who I’ve come to know who visit this site and take time to share your thoughts and care about what’s up with me. I appreciate you and love you for it.

For the last 3 months or so now I’ve been living all over the Detroit metro area while waiting for my new place to be completed 3 months behind schedule. It’s been quite a challenge not having a place of my own and having to depend on others in a way I’ve never particularly wanted to do. The people who have so graciously let me stay with them temporarily have been a blessing and I’m thankful for their hospitality. The past 6 months or so have really led me to a point of feeling the need to revitalize several aspects of my life. In a nutshell, I’ve been burned out on work, love, and my tireless pursuit to be the best I can be. The relationships I had in the past, the expectations of the future, and other things had simply become heavy weights around my ankles that only somewhat now am I beginning to unsheath. It sounds worse that what it may actually have been, because nevertheless I love my life and love living it. It’s just been a challenging time lately while I grow, mature, and become a better man.

I’m focused now on being the Sam that I enjoy being and shedding things that bring me down. I’m educating myself again. I’m refocusing my business efforts. I’m forming new relationships and taking new risks that will lead me to bigger and better things. It’s all a work in progress but just know that things are changing for me now in a more positive manner and I’m working harder to keep things that way even more than they’ve been in the past.

Stay tuned for what’s in store 😉

This time – I messed up real good. I broke all my own rules and probably even lost a friend or two in the process. The details of what happened aren’t important but I’m feeling pretty low right now. I’m really trying to get myself back on track mentally and get back to the things that made me someone you wanted to be around. Smiles seem more forced these days, my head doesn’t feel right, my body feels run down, and the days that go by that a goal is still pending are steadingly racking up.

I once wrote about “destroying and rebuilding” and how there are periods in one’s life where you must do so in order to progress towards something better. There’s been a lot of turmoil, stress, indecisiveness, and poor decisions I’ve experienced over the last 6 months that has taken a lot out of me and built up walls of challenges for me. I think its time I destroy the things which have brought me down including those within myself, and begin rebuidling with God, love, and a newfound motivation to go forward. I love the past but I gotta leave it all behind before it kills me. Its really all on me…

You know – I’ve taken a lot flack about my Lakers, especially since Kobe Bryant got himself in a sling. I came across this and thought I’d show everyone who has forgotten that Kobe, love him or hate him, is an incredible basketball player. As a hooper – I love his game…

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you’re told that you’re loved. You’d like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful… that you’ll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future… one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You’ll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You’ll do anything for love, but you won’t fall for it easily.

I really like the last two paragraphs of this… And it’s right – I don’t fall easily, especially these days…